Love, an endless mystery♥

.Tuesday, December 29, 2009 ♥

Seriously. Whatever.

Hate whatever I'm feeling now. It's the hormones.

Parents dragging me to jb out of random blue when my room was hit by a paper tsunami of scala ritcher 8.9.. and I received phone calls about some business investment oh which I don't give a single damn shit about.. parents coming out with random ideas for tmr of which I already kept pressing that I would not be home.. and I found out that I've been 'abused' by god knows what cause I have 2 blueblack on my body. And another msg saying he's going to be busy tonight.

I don't have a life, do I.

Okies pokies. I shall wait for that phone call as said by you or I will be an evil witch yet again.

argghhhh..jb.

and paper tsunami has not subsided

Love, @ 14:12

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The couple stayed over at my place on Sunday night. Perhaps my mood wasn't really in that cherry merry mode, hence I felt that room of comfort and privacy was literally snatched away from me. Pretty much spend the day trying to adapt to the disgusting, stuffy and messy guys room. But yea, things took a turn on Monday.. felt better after keeping to myself and drowning into Harry Potter. haha.

My club retreat has gotten its approval after 4 times sending it through and fro. Like finally something to keep me busy. Haha.. I can finally get down to business and start the planning proper.. planning with food, games, logistics and such. And of course, I'm roping the bf in. That same day when I got the approval, the couple brought us out for dinner. At that night, beloved bf called to tell that he needed to talk to me later on that same night. Love it when he does that.

So yupps, his family went out for dinner(which I missed since I was out with the couple). Anyway, he told me that he has spoken to his parents and specifically told them he wants them to come over to my place.

June 2010: Engagement

June 2011: Probably gonna get hitch if either one of us do not to the runaway bride/groom thingy. HAHAHAHA.

And if news spread out from this blog. I have these people to hunt. Ili, Ilyana, Hui Ming, Kak Ida, Khalis, Khair(hehe), Hisyam, Hamzah, Syahril, Khairiyah, Julaiha.. These are the people who have impacted my life in one way or other and I know these are the people I can rely and trust my life with. Keep it to yourself. And if you're not in this list, probably you're a hacker and means I do not want you reading about my life. Done :)

That pretty much brought smiles to me last night.. how about at 3am. HAHA

School will re-open on 11 January 2010. And I have exactly 1 month to party my life in NIE before I'm going to do teaching and try my best not to murder any students..HAHA.. kidding. WHYYY time flies! hahaha.. The thing is, I only have 2 modules to take next sem and my schooling days are Mon - Wed.. The days are short by the way. Makes me have more time to spend with dearest bf:)

The things I want to do:

Cycling at Ubin

ZOO with Juju and Khair

Ice Cream Buffet with Juju and Khair

Singapore National Museum

Body Works

Marina Barrage

Ok.. I can't think anymore.. it seems that we two just want to make up with whatever loss time. Like really a lot of loss time. First was the 3 weeks vacation, then now, my dad took leave this week which makes it impossible for me to go out since he will always spring impromptu plans. GRR. And this weekends both me and Khair are busy. Simply splendid. Haha

I miss you dearest boyfriend. But we know what we have to look forward to :)

Love, @ 11:28

.Wednesday, December 23, 2009 ♥

" While I still can, I buy for you k baby...who else I want to spend on?"

Said after he gave me 2 big bags of the shopping he did in Langkawi & Penang. The thing of having bf who dotes on you. No, I'm definitely not complaining. Just so sweet lah.

My mood to blog is back, but I don't know till when. hehe.. All I know, I've enjoyed a perfect Wednesday with him. Just lying and talking to you non stop. Perfect! And he just came over to take goodies my mum made for him. Buncit lah you tummy.. hehe

Tomorrow we're going to break our Orchard phobia. We never step foot into Orchard for random window shopping. We only went there to eat swensen last year dec and movie last june.. Haha. We simply hate the mass of people there. But we're gonna do it tomorrow. There's a flea market going on.. see whether I'm going to spend (or not) hehe..

Lovely. Love being with you :)

Love, @ 20:47

.Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ♥

8 - 11 Dec 09: I went to Bali

13 - 16 Dec 09: I went to KL

16 - 20 Dec 09: He to Langkawi

Yet again, another long separation. I don't know why, but it seems much harder now, despite having easy communication. I felt utterly lost without him being with me. "Kan the dates macam when you went to Myanmar". But, last year, I was just learning to fall in love with you. This year, I am in love with you.. So it is different.

We're back together again. It's such a feeling I can't explain well enough. I miss you beyond anything. After awhile the absence from each other was simply taking its toll on me. I felt a surge of mixed emotions within that one minute when I saw you. I dare say that I didn't blink my eyes in case you might suddenly disappear.

Just seeing you there in front of me, physically there, knowing that I'm no longer imagining you're with me. You smiling at me, the softness of your face when you smiled, the twinkle in your eyes. I am happy you're there, I fought back my tears knowing that everything is back to normal. I could not muster up words for you cause all I wanted was to continue looking at your smile and hear your voice that never fail to ease me. I feel and I know I am complete once again. You're there to complete myself, Nazatul Fadzlin.

It's only something only I and him can understand.

And I got to know/learn to not expect people to understand what's going on between me and him. To them it's just another soccer game that would probably take 3 hours maximum. What's 3 hours without your bf when you always have him by your side. Doubt they will ever understand that all I wanted was to make up time for both of us. For me to spend time talking and sharing things with you. For me to calm down my emotions.

I'm sick and tired of being annoyed when the guys decided to pull a sudden soccer watching/playing amidst when I'm chatting with you or when we have plans to spend time together or when you tried to make both parties happy by trying to accommodate to each other. Most importantly, it hurts me when the guys keep on making fun of you, though in joking manner, cause I know, it's gonna get to you matter of time. Suck that, it's always you you you.. but never them. As if they never pangseh the group and when they do, no one says anything.

So in the end, I'm the evil witch *inserts witch laughter* here. Yes, I, Nazatul Fadzlin am a selfish person.

So it boils down to me. I must learn to give in. I must not care or get annoyed if you want to spend time with the guys cause I know, you have your ways to kick sense into me if I happen to merajuk again. I'm just gonna try my best to learn to understand.

And I know, I would need your help in this dear.

"one party will never work this relationship out."

That assured me that I'm still your top priority :)

Love, @ 11:00

.Sunday, December 06, 2009 ♥

"if we could only be like this till Tuesday comes" (khair o9)

*NODS HEAD TO THE MAX*

I'm gonna miss you like so much dearest bf, Mohd khair. Off to Bali this Tuesday for a week and straight to KL after Bali.. and you'll be gone to Langkawi by then. It'll be a long time till we meet again.. but dear you, we will always remain contactable :) Take care of yourself and make sure you ENJOY.. cause I want to do the same too.

A vacation after the crazy semester and the most awaited wedding of abg aly :)

So the so-called-tak betul and semi mentel (purposely chose this photo.HEH) woman below is now my sis in law. YAY.. more tak betulness to come.. Welcome aboard kak dianna. Muah muah muah <3

I'll take the time to really unwind and recharge myself for 2010. 2009 has indeed been a wonderful year for me. I'll go all out to let loose and untangle those tangled nerves of worries, tiredness.. I'll be carefree with Ili dearest.

But I know, despite everything, I'll have you close to heart.

Pictures? wedding pictures.. nanti-nanti when I have the mood. HAHAH.. but this is my personal favourite.. nyeh nyeh nyeh.. of course.. it's with him.. hahaha..

Love, @ 21:28

.Thursday, November 26, 2009 ♥

It's time of the month where the PMS hormones are kicking in wildly. One after another. First was exams. Then wedding. Now this PMS shit. You know when PMS kicks in, everything magnify to the power of 10. My worry level increases. My i-miss-you-feeling increases. My sensitivity increase. Everything increases What more when you are sickly. It worsen it.

And all I wanted is for him to be 'here' with me.. but I don't fell it. Call me clingy but he's the one who is able to endure my load of craps and soothe me. But sigh, I felt rather 'lonely' today (remember, emotions are to the power of 10). I know he's busy and I'm telling myself that He's BUSY.. but it seems not to be able to comprehend it.

So now I'm feeling annoyed cause he's busy, which i know it's not his fault, and I can't make myself understand the situation. Sungguh Babs..

Nazatul Fadzlin despite the weather being so sunny, I don't feel that cheerful:( Need something/someone to brighten up this virus infected kid's day. cough and blows nose

And suck that by the end of the day, I had nothing and no one to brighten up my day. I feel unwanted.

Lesson of the day: I hate PMS. Dear period, come soon enough.

Love, @ 18:10

.Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ♥

Oh-this-is-blog worth-photo

Indeed exam periods are never meant to be a happy one. But I'm keeping my head up and putting in my very best. It's hard for me to succumb to stress and mood swings when he's always there to motivate and urge me to continue studying. Well, at least, I'm allowed to play bejeweled. HAHA. He's always being positive and my angel, catching and healing me when I fall or feel like it's the end of the world. :)

A bit more olin. Just one more week and everything would be Christmas for you. We shall see about it. Does this mean that this is the last week that I'm gonna spend more time with him than my family? Darn. Well holidays to look forward to and focus back with spending time with the family. Seriously, what family. Abg's away. Yami's away. It's us 4 once again. For once, I'm happy that the holiday is just ONE MONTH.. but shit, then comes TP. Boo BOO!

Well, gotta start planning.. like concrete planning between me and him :)

Back to notes..

Love, @ 02:54

.Saturday, November 07, 2009 ♥

I'm amidst trying to figure out my essay and I decided, uploading this is more worthwhile. HEH. Taking a short break off doing assignments.

Grr.. sometime, I just imagine myself as a clown juggling so many balls at one time. Juggling between assignment, studying, wedding preparationS.. I do feel real tired. Talking about tired, my house, room.. do not resemble as one lately. Filled with many stuffs. Berkat, dulang hantaran, clothes, gifts, ribbons and many more. So recently, I've found a very good place to catch a very much needed sleep. More like a power nap so I can last longer through the night to help out with whatever needed and studying. I resulted to the bf car. It's either I'm comforted with his presence around or I'm dead tired. I doze off within minutes and sleep for almost an hour. Haha.

And I look forward for my Bali trip. Just that November is not actually a fairytale month for me, well except moments spend with him, so I just wanna break free. Just away from homeland. Definitely sucks to be apart with sayang.. but I think, I deserve a good break. And, I'm gonna load my prepaid with much value so we can still communicate. Seriously, I do not wish for the Myanmar days to be back. 15 days of no communication. Torture!

Distance makes the heart fonder aye.

Definitely. This is the current schedule

Early Dec: Khair may be off to Tanjung Pinang with family

8-11 Dec: Olin to Bali

13-16 Dec / 14-17 Dec: Olin to KL

16-19 Dec: Khair to KL

23-26dec:Olin may be off for some family retreat in Malaysia.

I want to cry big time. Those in red is not confirm. If it is. OMG, I don't want to think about it. 1 month from each other. Last year was 15 days apart with no communication. Now, it's 3 weeks apart but with communication. I don't know which is worse. I guess, I just want to cherish moments with him now. Even if its just sitting in front of him and studying... Cause I know I'm gonna miss him like hell and feel handicapped when he's not around me.

So yupps, snapshots of our 1 year anniversary. A simple yet a lovely affair. Simply loves him many many..

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

"Berkatilah perhubungan ni. Bimbinglah kami. Berikannya ketenangan jiwa, ketulusan hati dan rezeki yang melimpah. Jauhkan dirinya dari apa jua kekusutan, masalah dan balak. Jika dugaan menimpanya, berikannya kekuatan dan petunjuk untuk menghadapi hari muka. Amin"

Mohammad Khair & Nazatul Fadzlin

Love, @ 14:41

Nazatul Fadzlin despite the weather being so sunny, I don't feel that cheerful:( Need something/someone to brighten up this virus infected kid's day. *cough and blows nose*

Nazatul Fadzlin despite the weather being so sunny, I don't feel that cheerful:( Need something/someone to brighten up this virus infected kid's day. cough and blows nose